my life at this point is kind of stagnant.......i eat, i sleep, i work, and i work to pay bills so that i CAN eat and sleep...........it's a comfortable stagnation that has dangerous implications, and i since i am aware of my comfort in this stagnation, i plan on changing this as soon as possible.............

i am endeavoring to push myself to be a better artist, to make something of myself, if nothing else than to be locally successful.................

there is just too much that i haven't done, and for some reason, i feel like my time to do them is running out............yeah, i'm still relatively young, but then again i'm NOT......................and i canNOT stay stagnant for the rest of my life.....................

so yeah..............this is the plan.......................

we'll see how long it lasts.....................

fingers crossed, my darling dears.......

oh yeah......and fucking Dexter AND Supernatural both left off their last seasons in RIDICULOUSLY obscenely heart-poundingly intense moments........defintely the best seasons so far for both shows, and i can't wait for them both to start up in a few months................damnit.............

Emily